jumbled

i suppose i could
if i tried
i suppose i would
if i thought you
would notice
maybe if i could
stay focused long enough
i could clearly express or
at least say enough to
help you sort of
understand
all of the things
that get jumbled together
when i fumble the words
that perfectly express
the way i feel about you
but it seems that
my best attempts
only leave me feeling like
i could do better
so i hope i show you
better than i tell you that
my heart is yours
and my smile
laugh and
love
say more than
my pen will ever
allow me to write...

dreams

i had a dream i sat next to you on a flower petal
and fed you bite size pieces of sunshine
we drank handfuls of happines
then had a picnic on the moon
the stars played a beautiful tune
while we kissed for hours
and my heart beat the perfect melody
each time i heard you say, i love you
and your heart beat a perfect melody
each time you heard me say, i love you
yeah...just like that

this is not an apology

this is not an apology
i'm just sharing

at times i am intense
my love can be overwhelming
if you're intentions are not pure

my love flirts with you
brushes up against your thoughts
winks at your curiosity

but, this is not an apology
i'm just saying

the love i give wraps it's arms around you
clenches it's thighs around your waist
and calls your name in a low voice only you can hear

emotion saturates my kiss
the truth is the only thing that passes across my lips
and i have a sick sense of what your idea of pleasure is

but, this is not an apology
i'm just letting you know

that the love i give can seem alarming
if you're used to love with conditions
because my love proves, that love, is non-existent

my love is...
all that you've ever wanted
and all that you'll ever need

but, this is not an apology
i'm just telling you
what makes my love so special

untitled

at this point
there's not much
that i can say
without saying
what i've been trying to say
since the beginning
in an around about
kind of way
yes, i'm talking in circles
why wouldn't i
when my thoughts
always seem to come back to you
if i get another chance
maybe i will have the nerve
to do what i've been wanting to do
since the beginning
maybe i will ask you to dance
and maybe you will say yes
then i will know
the feeling of
being in your embrace
maybe i will feel
the rhythm of your heart
as you feel
the rhythm of mine
i feel i've said too much
and not enough
at the same time
could be
i see myself in you
or see the things i try to hide
that you must be trying to hide
but can't hide from me
because i know
exactly what to look for
at this point
i have no idea what i'm saying
however
i do have a request
if you are ever
in the mood to grant a wish
just hold me in your arms
until the song ends

sweeter

a deeper love’s
a much sweeter love
than a short-lived
superficial love
so i’m keeping
no secrets, love
voicing all complaints
at the beginning, love
avoiding drama
down the road, love
staying true, love
no man compares to
you, love
never knew love
until the day
i met you, love
put down my guards
and embraced you, love
melted in your arms
then seeped through your pores, love
so i guess you can say
we’re one, love
savor the flavor
of your kiss, love
no need for rings or vows
this is natural, love
no contract compares
to the most high’s bond, love
my heart is yours
it always was, love
and always will be
even after my breaths cease, love

4 you

upon looking closer
you will find
the presence of your influence
hidden between syllables
like smiles found in
moments of silence over the phone
look at me
gone off to the land of
make believe
leaving sensibility behind
time traveling
so that i can watch
as you draw lines in the sand
hypnotized by your truth
honestly
i write on
even when i have
nothing left to say
just cuz i don’t want
the moment to end
but i can’t suspend the moment
so i just make it last longer
hoping time allows you to
hang around till the end

secret

i bet i would write the most beautiul poem
while in his embrace
my pen making strokes
while he strokes my hair
and gently kisses my neck
not sure why i choose to
create these moments
knowing they will never happen
maybe because watching them
feels nice
feels right
a beautiful love affair
silent love affair
no spoken words
just looks
and touches
i would be gentle
let my fingers
become feathers
so that it
almost feels
unreal
he's my secret
protected from reality
dwelling in my imagination
kissed passionately
and frequently
i savor the sweet taste
of happiness
that exists when our lips meet
but settle for pen wars
knowing that i surrendered long ago
now i write
so that
he can read
all that i may never say

no love

there's no love here
not on these streets
where children murder children
cops murder civilians
and judges say it's justified
cause justice lies to the people
claiming to be fair and equal
when it's really lethal
delivering fatal blows
creating single parent homes
putting lives on hold
until scientific evidence
or curious law classes
presents evidence of innocence
cause we're all guilty until proven innocent
plus the best defense the poor can afford
is a court appointed defense
and when it comes to battles
you can tell the difference
between those that are drafted
and those that enlist
there's something sick about
a society that punishes a man found guilty of murder
by taking his life, right?
well, what's the difference between that and locking him up for life?
maybe i think too much
could be making a big deal out of nothing
but i see suffering
in the eyes of my people
there's a contained rage
looking for anyway to escape
what happens to a dream slaughtered?
how long can one carry hope
before they realize that life without hope
means there's less of a chance to be disappointed?
there's no love here
not on these streets
what you'll find instead, are
broken hearts
murdered dreams
and rapidly disappearing hope

thinking of you

the first time you kissed me
felt like the first time i'd been kissed
i was so nervous that night/morning
knowing that i could do things
that i'd never done before
funny how small changes
can have such a big effect
like the change from
wanting to kiss you to
being kissed by you

i miss the way you look in my eyes
as if you already know
what i dare not say and
all that i will say,
in the near and distant future
you touch me
constantly in new ways
i'm thinking there may be
no end to this
feeling

stay

stay
right here
one more day
one more evening
until my heart can bear to say goodbye

in my sleep

more often than not
people value worthless things
clothing their character in robes of lies
turning their back on the truth
in hopes of blending with the masses

but my thoughts reach past human influence
so i don't worry about blending
this leaves me highly visilble to liars
they lock in on me and fire daily
refusing to accept that they can't penetrate
the shield of truth that protects me

when they get frustrated with failed attempts
their attack is aimed at those who fear being different
those quick to conform
hoping i'll believe their lies if they're told to me
by someone who has features similar to my own

but i refuse the offer of being pacified
cause i recognize wolves
even when they're dressed in sheep's clothing
i remain focused on spreading the truth

sometimes loneliness tries to attack me
by attempting to convince me that life is easier,
when you go with the flow
even when the currents rip your soul to shreds,
water-down your creativity
until you release control of your mind

but i'll never give them power over me
that's not my purpose
there's no way they can stop me
i know they will continue to try
i know they will continue to fail

it is a perpetual battle
taxing on the mind and soul
so when they demand rest
i comply
but continue to whisper truths in my sleep

love is...

love is…

brown eyes
brown hair
beautiful smile
enchanting laugh
soft lips
warm touch

love is…

honest
sincere
without hesitation
unconditional
peaceful
inspiring

love is…

strong
intelligent
kind
curious
respectful
considerate

love is…

timeless
priceless
unique
sweet
humorous
sensitive

love is…

all that you are
all that you were
all that you will be

love is you